it's been a while. things are going fine, i suppose. a lot has happened, but there's not enough words to describe what i've felt or experienced the past few months. so, all in all, i guess life is just...ordinary.

too ordinary, in fact, that i might want to just kill myself. for those of you who know, i'm the type of person who gets bored easily after taking on new things. well, life easily bores me. so if it doesn't give me anything new to play with, then what the hell, what's worth living for? it's all about adventure and learning!

irvine is the last place i want to be right now. it gives me the feeling of not belonging. it's complicated, but that's how i feel. it's like i'm in between two worlds, but none of them is willing to accept me. *shrug* i don't know. fleeting emotions. bastards.

mid-life crisis. being 21 isn't as cool as we all think it is. give me beer and alcohol anytime. but how about understanding of life? can you give me that? didn't think so.