8 months this time. and life has made a complete 180 turn. i can't quite say if it's a turn for the better or for the worse. but nonetheless, life is not what it used to be. 8 months is a long time. and of course, change is inevitable. but i did not foresee how big of a change it was going to be.

sometimes i look into the mirror and don't recognize the face that's staring back at me. and i can't help but think to myself, "damn, what have i done?"

there exists this unspoken understanding between a friend and i, even though i look up to this person (and i feel that i am not quite up to par with him) just because he truly exists as a human being and understands what it is to be human. many people would consider him a "hippie". well, i guess in a sense he is a modernized hippie, spreading peace and love, and listens to awesome music. hehe. but disregarding physical appearance (by that, i mean his bummish style of clothing), i admire him. he's one of the smartest people i know, and i can definitely talk to him about everything.

i guess sometimes i wish i knew more people just like him. modern hippies (i'm one, hehe) are pretty damn cool.

so it's been months. again. been busy and stuff. "rebuilding" my life, i suppose. things are good, very stable. not quite the life that i'm used to, but there are some things that take getting used to, including living a steady life. i don't know, i guess it's a good thing, but it's quite boring. routine is just not my thing, i guess. i like to live on the edge, doing things without knowing them in advance. i'm no planner, that's the end of that. but in the end, happiness and content is what matters.

anyway, i'm in love with my ipod. it's an excellent excuse for me to avoid the world and just be on my own. i love walking around campus just being able to listen to music. all the faces i see, they're just giant blurs. nothing matters but me and my music. and it feels damn good.

anyway, a new quarter has just begun. so far, so good.

it's been a while. things are going fine, i suppose. a lot has happened, but there's not enough words to describe what i've felt or experienced the past few months. so, all in all, i guess life is just...ordinary.

too ordinary, in fact, that i might want to just kill myself. for those of you who know, i'm the type of person who gets bored easily after taking on new things. well, life easily bores me. so if it doesn't give me anything new to play with, then what the hell, what's worth living for? it's all about adventure and learning!

irvine is the last place i want to be right now. it gives me the feeling of not belonging. it's complicated, but that's how i feel. it's like i'm in between two worlds, but none of them is willing to accept me. *shrug* i don't know. fleeting emotions. bastards.

mid-life crisis. being 21 isn't as cool as we all think it is. give me beer and alcohol anytime. but how about understanding of life? can you give me that? didn't think so.

wow. it's been a while. september came and went. now, i'm 21 and i can finally legally buy my own drinks. sweet.

let's see. school also started. i vow to do my best, and i intend to follow through with my words. so far, so good.

work is good. just training for now. we'll meet the kids in the next few weeks or so.

got another piercing. this time, it's a rook piercing in my right ear. good stuff. also looking for angel designs for my tattoo, which i will be getting within the next month. hehe. and another cartilage earring on my left ear. also contemplating on a belly button piercing and a nose piercing. hehehe.

so many drunken nights. anthill pub with the OG columbia court crew. good times. (allen, you little bastard, hahaha!). d&b's with all my friends and siblings. well, i would elaborate on that, but considering i don't remember much of what happened, well, i guess i can't say anything. but it was definitely good times.

my two best friends are finally in irvine with me. they make this place more tolerable.

hey guys, whoever wants gmail invites, let me know. i have 12 of them. haha! leave me a message on my chatterbox or here, or email me at angelalpas@gmail.com.

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so i just recently got offered a job to take care of an autistic child. his name's adam, and he's absolutely wonderful. i thought autistic kids are very difficult to deal with, but this kid is really something else. he'll listen to you, and he knows how to communicate his feelings fairly well (even if not verbally). i enjoyed spending 5 hours with him on wednesday...we went horseback riding, kayaking at newport aquatics center, swimming, and helped him identify things (we played with this set of flash cards that have images of objects and their spelling...he had a really hard time recognizing things). it was quite a tiring day, yet very fulfilling. it made me realize how lucky i really am.

the jumpstart interview went fairly well yesterday, too. i kinda breezed through the interview, i don't know why...answers to her somewhat difficult questions/scenarios just came running out of my mouth. hehe. i hope i get that job, too. i think helping unfortunate kids is also another fulfilling task. these kinds of things help you realize that life should not be taken for granted, and that whatever you have should be enough to make you happy, 'cause a lot of kids out there probably don't have that.

so that's that. as you can see, i've been busy for the past couple of weeks, working on job applications and going through interviews, dealing with school stuff and registering for classes, running around in irvine trying to take care of things, and dealing with the new apartment. *sigh* so many things in so little time!

so i've been in irvine for only a day and i'm already stressing out. there's just so much stuff to take care of in so little time! i have 2 job interviews in 2 days, i have to talk to my counselor about my fall schedule, then i have the new apartment to fix and arrange before school starts, plus i have to help marcus and his roommates move out of their apartment (that involves A LOT of cleaning!), and i've got a lot of paperwork to deal with (those stupid post office people). then when i go back home, i have to deal with my car and buy new insurance for it, plus do a favor for my mom which involves a lot of convincing and talking to a lot of people in her workplace, then i have to clean the house before my mom comes back, and the usual cooking of breakfast, lunch, and dinner for my dad and my siblings. *sigh* oh my, i didn't realize how much stuff i have to do until i saw it in writing! *hoo haa hoo haa* just breathe...okay, i'll be fine...

but in the midst of all the chaos, i still manage to catch up with friends that i haven't seen in ages. i went to a party last night with eric, iris, and angela. they didn't know i came down, so they were all surprised (i missed iris so much! haven't seen her since she left for guam!). then today, had lunch with eric, miguel, iris, and marcus at olive garden, then went to newport beach afterwards. then after that, played tennis with lawrence for a couple of hours, then just chatted at in n out for what seemed like 2 hours too! good times! =)

*sigh* i think i'm gonna go lie down for a bit. my mind is kinda dead right now.

on a side note: the new "the roots" album the tipping point is pretty damn good. go check it out.

i'm currently in my new apartment in irvine, hoping to arrange it a little so it won't be too much of a hassle when i move in in september. i'm loving it, 'cause it's just so homey. plus, i have it all to myself. hehe.

wow, school starts in a little over a month! even though i haven't done anything exciting this summer, i still don't want it to end so soon. i'm having a good time just hanging out at home with my family and my best friends.

i want to say thanks to laine for tagging me with such a sweet message. i really miss the old days. i wish i could've stayed longer there so i could've gotten to know you guys better.  but in any case, i know all you there in the philippines are very successful now, in your studies or in your jobs, but i do hope you're taking good care of yourselves.

anyway, i should hang my calendar and my book shelf. time to drill some more holes on the walls! hehe.

i almost cut my right leg open with the katana that my sister bought today. lol. how exciting. i also fed my stomach some good korean food today with my family. yay for soon doo boo and korean bbq. mmmmm!

my new apartment is looking quite spiffy. sweet! i love the kitchen, most especially, because of the new appliances they just installed (all matching!). i think i'll be cooking more often this year. hehe.

on my way down to irvine on friday, i got rear-ended by some motherfucker while driving down on the 5. the idiot was supposed to follow me out to the shoulder of the freeway, but instead he just sped away. fucking bitch. thank God there were no damages to the car.

alright guys, time to nap.

since my mom left for the philippines, i've been assigned to perform all the "mom" duties. i wake up early in the morning to cook breakfast for my dad and sister, who leave at 6 am for work. plus, i also have to cook lunch and dinner, and clean the house. *sigh* it's quite exhausting. ah well, it's all in good fun (somewhat, hehe) and love.

this summer has been quite uneventful. aside from my daily tennis training, some swimming sessions with my sisters, beach trips with my bestfriends, and a couple of hours a day of final fantasy x, i haven't really done anything exciting. well, i guess there's that hawaii trip with my bestfriends to look forward to (, though God knows when that'll be) and that vegas trip in august with my irvine friends (, time to drink it up on the vegas strip!).

i'm also planning on buying a new bodyboard. hooray for bodyboarding and surfing!

alright kids, peace out, a-town down. hehe. bye y'all.